How I yearn to really live surrendered to a God who loves me so much and only wants the best for me. To trust Him with my life and to relax into His plan. Everything within me has said, “If I relax, everything will fall apart. If I relax, nothing will get done. If I relax, then I will just be in denial about all the horrible things that are going on in the world and I won’t do anything. If I relax, I will be useful.” Okay, there is much more but that’s enough to give you the idea.
But what if….I relaxed into God’s love and He really helped me to see what I need to do each day that would contribute to the highest good of myself, my family, my friends, my neighborhood, my world.
What if when I sat down to plan my day using my two page a day, day timer inspired calendar, I asked Him to just guide me.
What if I didn’t have my days crammed so full of work that I don’t have time to clean my house, exercise, prepare food and connect with friends, family, and neighbors–or write–could I handle that? Could I trust God that I will have the provision I need?
I am so tired of living on my own strength. My van recently gave up the ghost with the transmission going down. It isn’t worth it to fix the vehicle.
Now we are pushing to fix a truck we have so I can have a vehicle. That takes money. I am tempted to try to figure out how to get more work to make sure I have enough. But I am more tempted (does God tempt us?) to say STOP! No more of this thought, “If I just could get ahead this week and get enough money to pay for this project or that bill or whatever.
I still remember the title of a sermon preached when I was about 9 years old. “Stop the world I want to get off”. Even back then, 46 or so years ago, the pace of life was fast and there was stress. My parents were pretty good at not getting over booked. They spent so much time with us kids-it really is amazing to me now. Weekend camping trips where we totally relaxed were the norm. My parents were so much in to taking vacations.
I am ready to stop the world of thoughts which say, “If I work harder, I will make enough money. ” No matter how hard I work, it is never enough money. Never. So I think something needs to change. This post by Oswald Chambers on January 2 in the updated edition of My Utmost For His Highest is what I am going to cling to as I make this transition to surrender.
“He went out, not knowing where he was going” (Hebrews 11.8)
Have you ever “gone out” in this way? If so, there is no logical answer possible when anyone asks you what your are doing. One of the most difficult questions to answer in Christian work is, “What do you expect to do?” you don’t know hwat you are going to do. The only thing you know is that God knows what He is doing. Continually examine your attitude toward God to see if you are willing to “go out” in every area of your life, trusting in God entirely. It is this attitude that keeps you in continual wonder, because you don’t know what God is going to do next. Each morning as you wake, there is a new opportunity to “go out,” building your confidence in God. “…do not worry about your life…nor about the body…”(Luke 12:22). In other words, don’t worry about the things that concerned you before you did “go out.”
Have you been asking God what He is going to do? He will never tell you. God does not tell you what He is going to do–He reveals to you who He is. Do you believe in a miracle-working God, and will you “go out” in complete surrender to Him until you are not surprised by anything He does?
Believe God is always the God you know Him to be when you are nearest to Him. Then think how unnecessary and disrespectful worry is! Let the attitude of our life be a continual willingness to “go out” in dependence upon God and your life will have a sacred and inexpressible charm about it that is very satisfying to Jesus. You must learn to “go out” through your convictions, creeds, or experiences until you come to the point in your faith that there is nothing between yourself and God.